Pride & brokenness
I used to think I was a humble person, or at least one time I thought I was, but lately God has been revealing to me that I have pride in my heart. Pride that causes me to resist & delay obedience.
Food has become a barrier in my relationship with God. I know that when my emotions are running wild, that I should turn to Him for comfort instead of food but, for some reason, I resisted yielding to Him. And for sometime now, I have continued to resist yielding to Him. I have become aware of how desensitized I had become to things that are displeasing to the Lord. I had resisted the direction of the Holy Spirit. I was not considering His authority to be a big part of my life anymore.
When the Lord revealed to me the way I was to take care of my body, I accepted it with so much passion and strived to make Him proud. But, however, I started to compromised. And then over a period of time, by ignoring His conviction, I had stiffened my neck and hardened my will against Him. My heart was no longer soft, pliable, responsive to His leading.
I started to do things that in a way that would tune Him out. I think for some reason I was afraid of getting quiet with Him. I would occupy my time eating, reading, surfing the net, listening to music, shopping, ect.... And a lot of the time when I was on the internet, the sites I was on were Christian based and the songs I was listing to were Christian songs and the books I was reading were Christian books but I wasn't allowing myself to get quiet, without any distractions, with Him, to really talk and listen to Him like I used to. I stopped mediating with Him. I came, well, religious... I hardened my heart and my pride made me resist getting quiet with Him.
I have experienced genuine brokenness in the past but I failed to continue walking in the lifestyle of brokenness today. I had placed myself in a position where I forced God to resist me because I refused to humble myself and be broken before Him in this matter. God always resists the proud.
..."God sets himself against the proud, but he shows favor to the humble." -1 Peter 5:5 (NLT)
God has called us all to live a humble life, a life broken before Him. Sooner or later, we will all be broken. Don't wait for God to break you, choose to be broken. Don't wait for God to crush your pride like He had to with me. If we resist the means God provides to lead us to brokenness, we do not avoid brokenness--we simply make it necessary for God to intensify and prolong the pain.
Everyone who falls on that stone will be broken to pieces, but he on whom it falls will be crushed." -Luke 20:18 (NIV)
Lately I have not been broken. I have been crushed by my circumstances because of my unwillingness to voluntarily fall on the Rock and be broken. Fall on the Rock, Jesus Christ, who was broken for you--and cultivate the habit of crying out to Him.
So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and in his good time he will honor you. -1 Peter 5:6 (NLT)
This past week on the radio, I heard some messages that really struck me and made me think. They had to do with pride and no remedy. The broken will be blessed but there is a painful price to those who choose to not be broken...it's called destruction. For a time we may succeed in resisting the will of God; He may allow us to continue walking with pride in our hearts. But eventually God will bring down everything that exalts itself against Him. How long will God allow me to be disobedient before there is destruction and no remedy for me? How long will it be before He takes away my purpose in life and gives it to someone else? God is in control and if He can't use me, He will find someone else to use to fulfill His purpose.
He, that being often reproved hardened his neck, shall suddenly be destroyed, and that without remedy. -Proverbs 29:1 (King James Version)
Whoever stubbornly refuses to accept criticism will suddenly be broken beyond repair. -Proverbs 29:1 (New Living Translation)
The day is coming when your pride will be brought low and the LORD alone will be exalted. In that day the LORD Almighty will punish the proud, bringing them down to the dust. -Isaiah 2:11-12 (New Living Translation)
Food has become a barrier in my relationship with God. I know that when my emotions are running wild, that I should turn to Him for comfort instead of food but, for some reason, I resisted yielding to Him. And for sometime now, I have continued to resist yielding to Him. I have become aware of how desensitized I had become to things that are displeasing to the Lord. I had resisted the direction of the Holy Spirit. I was not considering His authority to be a big part of my life anymore.
When the Lord revealed to me the way I was to take care of my body, I accepted it with so much passion and strived to make Him proud. But, however, I started to compromised. And then over a period of time, by ignoring His conviction, I had stiffened my neck and hardened my will against Him. My heart was no longer soft, pliable, responsive to His leading.
I started to do things that in a way that would tune Him out. I think for some reason I was afraid of getting quiet with Him. I would occupy my time eating, reading, surfing the net, listening to music, shopping, ect.... And a lot of the time when I was on the internet, the sites I was on were Christian based and the songs I was listing to were Christian songs and the books I was reading were Christian books but I wasn't allowing myself to get quiet, without any distractions, with Him, to really talk and listen to Him like I used to. I stopped mediating with Him. I came, well, religious... I hardened my heart and my pride made me resist getting quiet with Him.
I have experienced genuine brokenness in the past but I failed to continue walking in the lifestyle of brokenness today. I had placed myself in a position where I forced God to resist me because I refused to humble myself and be broken before Him in this matter. God always resists the proud.
..."God sets himself against the proud, but he shows favor to the humble." -1 Peter 5:5 (NLT)
God has called us all to live a humble life, a life broken before Him. Sooner or later, we will all be broken. Don't wait for God to break you, choose to be broken. Don't wait for God to crush your pride like He had to with me. If we resist the means God provides to lead us to brokenness, we do not avoid brokenness--we simply make it necessary for God to intensify and prolong the pain.
Everyone who falls on that stone will be broken to pieces, but he on whom it falls will be crushed." -Luke 20:18 (NIV)
Lately I have not been broken. I have been crushed by my circumstances because of my unwillingness to voluntarily fall on the Rock and be broken. Fall on the Rock, Jesus Christ, who was broken for you--and cultivate the habit of crying out to Him.
So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and in his good time he will honor you. -1 Peter 5:6 (NLT)
This past week on the radio, I heard some messages that really struck me and made me think. They had to do with pride and no remedy. The broken will be blessed but there is a painful price to those who choose to not be broken...it's called destruction. For a time we may succeed in resisting the will of God; He may allow us to continue walking with pride in our hearts. But eventually God will bring down everything that exalts itself against Him. How long will God allow me to be disobedient before there is destruction and no remedy for me? How long will it be before He takes away my purpose in life and gives it to someone else? God is in control and if He can't use me, He will find someone else to use to fulfill His purpose.
He, that being often reproved hardened his neck, shall suddenly be destroyed, and that without remedy. -Proverbs 29:1 (King James Version)
Whoever stubbornly refuses to accept criticism will suddenly be broken beyond repair. -Proverbs 29:1 (New Living Translation)
The day is coming when your pride will be brought low and the LORD alone will be exalted. In that day the LORD Almighty will punish the proud, bringing them down to the dust. -Isaiah 2:11-12 (New Living Translation)
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