Still wondering around in the wilderness
Work was kinda stressful today. First of all, I learned that one of the assistants that I think of as a brother is transferring to another store this Saturday. I will miss him and I will miss hanging out with him. Because he is leaving, that leaves us with 3 day time assistants and we are under staffed. Because we are under staffed, nobody gets the weekend off for like a month. And guess who was suppose to get a 3 day weekend this week...ME.
First of all I was excited that I was going to get days off that were actually together and second of all I was excited that I was getting the weekend off. I had made plans to go hiking on Saturday with a friend I met from the young adult ministry group from my church and I was pumped that I had a Saturday night off so I could actual go to the young adult ministry group and I had a Sunday off so I could actual go to church. But no, get me all excited and then, oh sorry, tough...no weekend off for me and good luck if I get 2 days off together.
I feel like God is dealing with me on my relationships but the thing is I usual don't have the same days off as my friends and I work crazy hours and they work normal hours and most of them have the weekends off. Plus on my days off, I need down time to from people and I'm just confused and frustrated about the whole thing. I feel like it is important to actual be involve in the church and be involved with members of the church but my schedule rarely allows me to participate in church activities.
Another thing that stressed me out a little was the fact that the company president was suppose to be touring our store today. He never showed up but I worried about till I learned that he wasn't coming.
I was in a cranky mood today. A lot had to do with my selfishness. I had plans to go work out and take care of some things after work and I was dead set on living work at the time I was suppose to get off which was 5 but by the time I got out of there and was able to head home it was about 6:30Pm. I hate when people waste my time (that's where my selfishness comes into to play) I was only thinking of myself but there are also times when you have to tell people I got things I need to take care of and I only have so much time.
From the way I started my day today, by listening to Joyce Meyer, I was refreshed and ready to overcome my bondage to food and to stop wasting time but I let my evening at work discourage me and when I got home, I choose to sin and binge eat. I didn't go and work out like I had planned and I didn't spend a lot of time reading the word like I planned and I just wasted my whole evening. Now it is 11:30 and I'm like what the heck did I accomplish tonight....not a dang thing.
When am I going to quit wondering around in the wilderness?!?!?! It is stealing my joy. I know the truth but yet I choose to be led by my feelings instead of the spirit. Why? I know that I can change myself and I need to surrender to him and let him change me. I better straighten up and give it all to God before he picks someone else to accomplish the mission he gave me.....
First of all I was excited that I was going to get days off that were actually together and second of all I was excited that I was getting the weekend off. I had made plans to go hiking on Saturday with a friend I met from the young adult ministry group from my church and I was pumped that I had a Saturday night off so I could actual go to the young adult ministry group and I had a Sunday off so I could actual go to church. But no, get me all excited and then, oh sorry, tough...no weekend off for me and good luck if I get 2 days off together.
I feel like God is dealing with me on my relationships but the thing is I usual don't have the same days off as my friends and I work crazy hours and they work normal hours and most of them have the weekends off. Plus on my days off, I need down time to from people and I'm just confused and frustrated about the whole thing. I feel like it is important to actual be involve in the church and be involved with members of the church but my schedule rarely allows me to participate in church activities.
Another thing that stressed me out a little was the fact that the company president was suppose to be touring our store today. He never showed up but I worried about till I learned that he wasn't coming.
I was in a cranky mood today. A lot had to do with my selfishness. I had plans to go work out and take care of some things after work and I was dead set on living work at the time I was suppose to get off which was 5 but by the time I got out of there and was able to head home it was about 6:30Pm. I hate when people waste my time (that's where my selfishness comes into to play) I was only thinking of myself but there are also times when you have to tell people I got things I need to take care of and I only have so much time.
From the way I started my day today, by listening to Joyce Meyer, I was refreshed and ready to overcome my bondage to food and to stop wasting time but I let my evening at work discourage me and when I got home, I choose to sin and binge eat. I didn't go and work out like I had planned and I didn't spend a lot of time reading the word like I planned and I just wasted my whole evening. Now it is 11:30 and I'm like what the heck did I accomplish tonight....not a dang thing.
When am I going to quit wondering around in the wilderness?!?!?! It is stealing my joy. I know the truth but yet I choose to be led by my feelings instead of the spirit. Why? I know that I can change myself and I need to surrender to him and let him change me. I better straighten up and give it all to God before he picks someone else to accomplish the mission he gave me.....
posted by ENS at 11:08 PM
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