It's up to me

Work is not my favorite place. I try to be as positive and happy about it as I can and I try to not let others see my pain, but deep inside, I know that I'm not truly happy. But the thing is, since I know that this is where God wants me to be, I have supernatural peace about it and that is what gives me the motivation to do it everyday without being depressed.

Earlier at work I was thinking and having a little emotional pity party with myself about the fact that I busted my butt in college to get a finance degree, and this is where it got me...It didn't take long for God to inform me that my future is up to me. He gave me the vision and purpose but it's my responsibility to make it come to pass. So the sooner I completely surrender to Him and obey what He tells me to do, the sooner He will promote me to be a personal trainer. And if I don't obey Him, I could be at the job for a long time......that scares me.

When God showed me my vision and purpose, He gave me a time line and the time He said I would be an assistant mrg was from 3 to 5 years. From what I think is He said that to show me that it is up to me how long I'm an assistant. The quick I do what he tells me to do and learn what He wants me to learn, the less time I have to be an assistant. I'm glad He showed me that because that just gave me even more motivation to quit giving in to my fleshly desires and start being completely obedient to Him.