Procrastination and selfishness
One of my worst habits is procrastination and it is really starting to drive me nuts and stress me out. Already at work I can see where I am procrastinating a lot and I am already making people frustrated with me because of it. Actually, I should have entered this journal entry for yesterday but when I got home from work, I procrastinated long enough to where I got so tired I fell asleep before I did it. This habit of mine is getting out of control.
When I stop to think of the root cause of why I do this, I see that it comes from more than one factor. First it has to do with my indecisiveness. In James 1:8 it says, "A double minded man is unstable in all his ways." indecision will keep you from doing what you ought to do and cause you to procrastinate and your indecision may end up killing you. Plus, you will probably will make fewer mistakes by going ahead and making decisions than you will by delaying and ultimately making no decision at all.
Second factor has to do with perfectionism. How I was raised made me a perfectionist because my parents were perfectionist also. There are times I see myself putting off things while I wait for the perfect time when things are better or perfect. In Ecclesiastes 11:4 it says, "If you wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done." Everything will never be just right. There will always be a hundred reasons why this is the wrong time to try anything new or different. The successful person is the person who takes action, who takes the offensive even though the possibility for failure always loom on horizon.
Fear is the third reason. I don't want to fail, but I'm struggling with the fear of failure, the fear of man, the fear of rejection, and the fear of being alone. It crazy to me that I had enough courage to move all the way to California by myself, where I don't know anybody, to start a new job, and have witnessed God working in supernatural ways since I have been here but I still fear the little things I come in contact with daily. I know God did not give us a spirit of fear and knowing that truth has got me here today. I know that God is going to take care of me because of my experiences of how he has in the past. I think the real reason why I have fear is because I fear me being rebellious and not doing what God tell me to and I fear the punishment of that. Which having the fear of God in the way is God. I just need to wake up and do what I am suppose to do before it is too late.
Because I am in management, I daily have to make hard choices and I fear that I will make the wrong choice and I will fail. Because of the area I live in and the associates I manage, I fear that if I make one my associates mad, that they are going to hurt me some how. I know that from Psalm 27:1-5 that if God is for us, who can be against us? I just need to mediate on the scriptures in my head on a DAILY basis and I will lose the fear.
Another fear I have been trying to deal with is the fear of losing my job. Working for the company I work for is fair but it very demanding on the standards of management. I move all the way out here and if I lost my job here I don't know what I would do. I believe that when God closes one door, that he opens a new door. But the thing is, a lot of people know the real reason why I came out here. I felt like God was calling me out here and if I fail, that will make God look like a liar and make me look stupid. I want to influence people to love God, to trust him with all their heart and to have a personal relationship with him. I don't want them doubting him thinking He is not true to his promises.
God just showed me that I need to change my thinking. If I expect to fail and think God is going to let me down, then I am going to fail. If I expect to succeed and expect to experience God's gracious power and love, then I will do just that. He also informed me that you can't just renew your mind once. You have to do it daily to stay strong.
Another reason I procrastinate is because I am LAZY. Proverbs 13:4 says, "Lazy people want much but get little." God has given me the vision and the power to do his will. I just have to make the choice to say no to my fleshy desires to be lazy and to walk in the spirit. Everything I need to have control over the devil God has given me. It is up to me not to give him permission not to control me anymore.
The Spirit of Procrastination whispers to me, "If you delay the decision, the problem will get easier." Bad doesn't get better longer. "Because sentence against an evil work is not executed speedily, therefore the heart for the sons of men is fully set in them to do evil.' -Ecclesiates 8:11. God's remedy against sins and evil is quick and severe action. Evil does not get better if you neglect it. Evil doesn't redeem itself.
Procrastination has cost me opportunities, multiplied my problems, and has hurt other people.
God has given me many opportunities and I am ashamed to think of how many opportunities I have missed because of my procrastination. The person who lives a rich and full life is the person who takes advantage of the opportunities. Time is passing by quickly. Opportunities don't come at convenient times. Time is a precious grace gift from God. What am I doing with the time God has given me.....?
When I stop to think of the root cause of why I do this, I see that it comes from more than one factor. First it has to do with my indecisiveness. In James 1:8 it says, "A double minded man is unstable in all his ways." indecision will keep you from doing what you ought to do and cause you to procrastinate and your indecision may end up killing you. Plus, you will probably will make fewer mistakes by going ahead and making decisions than you will by delaying and ultimately making no decision at all.
Second factor has to do with perfectionism. How I was raised made me a perfectionist because my parents were perfectionist also. There are times I see myself putting off things while I wait for the perfect time when things are better or perfect. In Ecclesiastes 11:4 it says, "If you wait for perfect conditions, you will never get anything done." Everything will never be just right. There will always be a hundred reasons why this is the wrong time to try anything new or different. The successful person is the person who takes action, who takes the offensive even though the possibility for failure always loom on horizon.
Fear is the third reason. I don't want to fail, but I'm struggling with the fear of failure, the fear of man, the fear of rejection, and the fear of being alone. It crazy to me that I had enough courage to move all the way to California by myself, where I don't know anybody, to start a new job, and have witnessed God working in supernatural ways since I have been here but I still fear the little things I come in contact with daily. I know God did not give us a spirit of fear and knowing that truth has got me here today. I know that God is going to take care of me because of my experiences of how he has in the past. I think the real reason why I have fear is because I fear me being rebellious and not doing what God tell me to and I fear the punishment of that. Which having the fear of God in the way is God. I just need to wake up and do what I am suppose to do before it is too late.
Because I am in management, I daily have to make hard choices and I fear that I will make the wrong choice and I will fail. Because of the area I live in and the associates I manage, I fear that if I make one my associates mad, that they are going to hurt me some how. I know that from Psalm 27:1-5 that if God is for us, who can be against us? I just need to mediate on the scriptures in my head on a DAILY basis and I will lose the fear.
Another fear I have been trying to deal with is the fear of losing my job. Working for the company I work for is fair but it very demanding on the standards of management. I move all the way out here and if I lost my job here I don't know what I would do. I believe that when God closes one door, that he opens a new door. But the thing is, a lot of people know the real reason why I came out here. I felt like God was calling me out here and if I fail, that will make God look like a liar and make me look stupid. I want to influence people to love God, to trust him with all their heart and to have a personal relationship with him. I don't want them doubting him thinking He is not true to his promises.
God just showed me that I need to change my thinking. If I expect to fail and think God is going to let me down, then I am going to fail. If I expect to succeed and expect to experience God's gracious power and love, then I will do just that. He also informed me that you can't just renew your mind once. You have to do it daily to stay strong.
Another reason I procrastinate is because I am LAZY. Proverbs 13:4 says, "Lazy people want much but get little." God has given me the vision and the power to do his will. I just have to make the choice to say no to my fleshy desires to be lazy and to walk in the spirit. Everything I need to have control over the devil God has given me. It is up to me not to give him permission not to control me anymore.
The Spirit of Procrastination whispers to me, "If you delay the decision, the problem will get easier." Bad doesn't get better longer. "Because sentence against an evil work is not executed speedily, therefore the heart for the sons of men is fully set in them to do evil.' -Ecclesiates 8:11. God's remedy against sins and evil is quick and severe action. Evil does not get better if you neglect it. Evil doesn't redeem itself.
Procrastination has cost me opportunities, multiplied my problems, and has hurt other people.
God has given me many opportunities and I am ashamed to think of how many opportunities I have missed because of my procrastination. The person who lives a rich and full life is the person who takes advantage of the opportunities. Time is passing by quickly. Opportunities don't come at convenient times. Time is a precious grace gift from God. What am I doing with the time God has given me.....?
posted by ENS at 10:11 AM
1 Comments:
Procrastination, laziness, not putting all your talents and skills into you life, not finishing stuff is all due to being selfish. I want rewards, respect, money, success, fame, confidence, and I want it now, but forget the idea that I will spend even one hour not concentrating on myself but on some work I need to do for someone else.
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