A year ago
Today I turned 23. I think back to last year on my birthday and I remember just how far I have come in my walk with the Lord and I'm reminded on just how much God has delivered me from. Last summer I partied it up pretty hard and I was drinking a lot. I think the week of my birthday, three of the four nights I went out I got trashed pretty bad and I think 2 of those nights I even puked. After that week I realized just how much I was destroying my temple that God blessed me with. First of all, I was binge drinking. Second of all, I was binge drinking while I was taking 6 or so different medications.
I had been drawling closer to God the last couple of months at that time but around my birthday time was when God started to deal with me on the drinking/parting area of my life. I cut back on how many days I went out and I cut down on the amount I consumed. As I gradually became closer to God, the more he dealt with me on this issue. It wasn't till November of last year, when I was baptized in the holy spirit, that God delivered me and set me free from this bondage. I still went out a couple of times in the months of Nov, Dec and Jan but it just wasn't the same. I didn't have the desire to go to the bar anymore or to act or dress the way I used to. I didn't have the desire to be around those who wanted to act like that anymore. I would go to the bar just so I could spend time with my friends. I enjoyed hanging out with my friends but I didn't want to be a part of that mess anymore.
Even though God took that desire of the bar away from me, drinking in general is a weak area for me. It was extremely hard for me to go to the bar and not drink. There was times I did it but it was a struggle. And when I did choose to drink, it was also hard for me to go to the bar and just have a drink or so. Usually, if I was drinking, I was getting drunk.
I'm so proud of myself because since February, I have drank about 4 times. One of those times in April I got drunk and another one of those times, which was in the beginning of May, I was buzzin pretty bad.
I'm so joyful that God has changed me and made me a better person. There is a lot about me and my life that God needs to fix but thank God he doesn't deal with me about everything all in one day. Also, it is so uplifting and freeing to know that God has forgiven me for my sins and he has given me the righteousness of God. None of us can avoid falling into premeditated sin at one time or another. It is just the carnal nature within us, but how we handle that situation will determine how God deals with us. John said, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).
"Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins" 1 John 4:10
"Unto him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood . . . to him be glory and dominion for ever and ever" Revelation 1:5, 6
I had been drawling closer to God the last couple of months at that time but around my birthday time was when God started to deal with me on the drinking/parting area of my life. I cut back on how many days I went out and I cut down on the amount I consumed. As I gradually became closer to God, the more he dealt with me on this issue. It wasn't till November of last year, when I was baptized in the holy spirit, that God delivered me and set me free from this bondage. I still went out a couple of times in the months of Nov, Dec and Jan but it just wasn't the same. I didn't have the desire to go to the bar anymore or to act or dress the way I used to. I didn't have the desire to be around those who wanted to act like that anymore. I would go to the bar just so I could spend time with my friends. I enjoyed hanging out with my friends but I didn't want to be a part of that mess anymore.
Even though God took that desire of the bar away from me, drinking in general is a weak area for me. It was extremely hard for me to go to the bar and not drink. There was times I did it but it was a struggle. And when I did choose to drink, it was also hard for me to go to the bar and just have a drink or so. Usually, if I was drinking, I was getting drunk.
I'm so proud of myself because since February, I have drank about 4 times. One of those times in April I got drunk and another one of those times, which was in the beginning of May, I was buzzin pretty bad.
I'm so joyful that God has changed me and made me a better person. There is a lot about me and my life that God needs to fix but thank God he doesn't deal with me about everything all in one day. Also, it is so uplifting and freeing to know that God has forgiven me for my sins and he has given me the righteousness of God. None of us can avoid falling into premeditated sin at one time or another. It is just the carnal nature within us, but how we handle that situation will determine how God deals with us. John said, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).
"Herein is love, not that we loved God, but that he loved us, and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins" 1 John 4:10
"Unto him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood . . . to him be glory and dominion for ever and ever" Revelation 1:5, 6
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