Another day

We had bible study tonight and God gave me the opportunity to share with a couple girls about my eating disorder. I'm surprised I didn't cry while I was telling them about it. Especially after the day I had today battling this disorder. It was weird though because before we broke up from our big group to join together with our small group, I felt this feeling come over me that I can't explain and I had tears starting to form in my eyes and I could have started to cry if I would have allowed myself to.

I hope I get free from this soon because I hate the way this bondage to food makes me act. It effects my moods and attitudes and makes me a selfish person. I think one of the things that will help me to get free from this bondage is to get my mind off myself and starting thinking of what I can do for someone else. What can I do to help someone else. Because I know that once I start to focus on helping other's with their problems, God will take care of mine. That's what I did the last time I was depressed and God healed me and I became closer to Him in the process.