Friday, September 02, 2005

Being led by my works in search for "the one"

I'm suppose to be led by the Lord in all areas of my life but lately I have been led by my works in the area of my singleness. I got the bright idea to post a profile on Yahoo! Personals about a week ago.

I was so anxious to get my profile up and I wasted so must time and energy in getting everything together. For a couple of days I was so eager to check to see who was interested in me. I searched a couple of times over and over just to make sure I didn't miss anyone that I was potentially interested in sending a message to. I sent a message to six people and not one replied back to me......oh do I feel the rejection. I have had my profile up for about five or six days and I've only had 19 people positively respond....none of which I have responded back to. Being single is so frustrating but it shouldn't be this way. What's bad is that I know the truth so why am I acting this way!?!

I was not led by the spirit to do any of this and I didn't even asked his advice about the lovely plan of mine. One of the main things that will keep you from enjoying life is works of the flesh. I need to avoid the frustrations of fleshly works and ask God for help. It is not a sign of weakness to admit that we cannot help ourselves; it is the truth. Jesus said, "Apart from Me [cut off from vital union with me] you can do nothing." (John 15:5)

I was frustrated, struggling and unhappy simply because I was trying to fix something that I cannot do anything about. I am trying to change something that only God can change. Just another way that I am showing him that I don't have complete faith and patience in him in this area of my life.

I need to back off and wait for God because even though I'm trying hard, my efforts aren't working. But while waiting for God to take care of the situation, I need to enjoy the wait. Waiting for God honors him, and the Bible say that the person who honors God will be honored by Him.

God doesn't move in your life when you struggle and try to take matters into you own hands, which was what I was doing. He moves when you trust Him. If I want to an enjoyable life, sooner or later I must learn to quit trying to make things happen myself.

God wants us to pray first and ask Him for His plan. After we have His plan, then He wants us to trust Him to bring it to pass. Our activity birthed out of the flesh actually prevents God from showing Himself strong in our lives. We can either live as a slave to the law, or as an heir to the promise. We can either live by trying to take care of ourselves, or we can live by trusting God.

Those who believe in God enter into His rest. Rest is freedom from excessive reasoning, struggle, fear, inner turmoil, worry, and frustration, which develops because of our working to do what only God can do. It is the rest of the soul - the mind, will and emotions being at peace.

He is going to take care of us and met our needs. We don't know when or how, and we really don't need to care because we should be enjoying the life we have right now while God is working on our problems.

Because of my impatient, I am prolonging the time I have to wait. When we try to speed things up, all we end up doing is stretching out our waiting time. When we get into works of the flesh, we find ourselves in a big mess that has to be dealt with. Once we have complicated out lives, it takes a while to clean things up. Trying to speed things up to get what God has promised to give us is a work of the flesh and this joy stealer will leave us frustrated and fruitless.

I'm going to remove my profile right now before I do anymore damage...

"Lord, whatever I may desire in my life, if you don't want me to have it, I don't want it. If you do want me to have it, I ask you for it and believe that you will give it to me in your time, in your way, according to your divine plan...In Jesus's Name, Amen"

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