Part of the problem and not the solution

The whole day at work I felt sick to my stomach because of what I did yesterday. I lied a stupid lie to one of my bosses and I'm paying for the consequences. Our relationship is not the same anymore and he wasn't very graceful today with me like he somewhat usually is. He's probably thinking, here is this girl who claims to be a good Christian person and she lies stupid lies. How do I expect him to trust me? Seriously.

I was planning on apologize to him but today was crazy at work and he was never alone when I was around to talk to him. I going to apologize but it won't be till Sunday which will make it even more embarrassing and humbling.

I really need to get my act together at work. God is doing his part and I'm not doing my part all the way? Daily I have to sacrifice my fleshly desires to do the will of God so I can grow and become a better person. There are days I do good and do what I'm suppose to be doing and there are days when I just drift by and I'm not taking ownership of my areas. I am part of the problem and not the solution. I'm making excuses like the rest of the associates that I gripe about. My bosses are starting to be a little less merciful of my situation and I need to shape it up quick or else. I can't be ignorant and play around anymore. It's hard to do what's right because it hurts the flesh but It's going to be a whole lot harder if I don't follow God direction. He will never give me something that I can't handle with his help. I just have to be strong and press through to my victory.

On a better note, lately I have been eating the way God has led me and I hasn't been all that of a struggle like it usually is. I just have to keep my eyes on Him and praise Him and He will deliver me through it all.